I feel lonely and I like to lie in bed under my quilt cuddling my pillow as if it is someone?

Wow I'm sorry... I know how you feel I lost my mom not to long ago... but it sounds like depression?. And to help with the lonliness maybe get a pet like a cat or something the nice ones are good for cuddling and it would help you feel wanted. Or Start putting yourself out there look for some one you can be romantic with, I was clinically depressed for a while and and my boyfriend helped me through it waaaay more than meds..